Re: Rescue fantasies, growing up,

I had rescue fantasies before sexual fantasies. Things kinda built from those, ya know? id be in a situation where maybe we were kidnapped together and I would protect her.

When puberty started for me, then maybe a kiss or two would happen during the times wed be snuggling (see, the bad guys would have us locked in a room or something and Id want her to feel safe, so wed snuggle)

I really enjoy these types of fantasies. They were an outlet for me when I was still a child myself, and there was nothing wrong with it. Ive always wanted to be the big brother or something similar.

Also I can remember even as a 6 year old having a crush on a much smaller girl (in stature, not age) but It had something to do with wanting to protect her too.

Anyways Things never really changed for me. Ive always felt like children were my peers. So when they hit puberty, its more like they are leaving me in childhood. Thats more or less an outdated view (or whatever) I have though, as Im more likely to view children like your average non-pedo child loving adult these days.

Ah, old "habits" die hard though, Alot of grieving in growing up and saying goodbye to old fantasies. They no longer work like they used to for me. It's sad, yeah... Regardless, I'll always find little girls the most beautiful of God's creatures as even if I could quit (you know, just not find them that way anymore) I probably wouldnt. The fantasies though, sexual or not... Ive learned to let go a little more and more each day. Its like Why want something I cant have.

Sorry for the getting off topic. Im not a poster, so I guess I had some stuff to get off my chest. Am in need of people to talk to, etc... And who knows, someone usually says something that makes me re-evaluate my views. I know I can sound a little arrogant -n- stuff. I dont mean to. I just want to find a way to live happy, stay out of trouble, and not harm myself or anyone else in any way. (of course I have many other basic wants.. but blah blah blah)

bye guys/girls.