I read it

What Hajduk wrote surprised me. Aside from the dark skin and sleeping together, it reminded me of the girl at the hospital cafeteria when I was visiting a sick friend.

She had eyes that captured my attention right off. I estimated that she was in her mid to lower teens. My poor sick friend just laughed at me when I stopped my conversation mid-sentence because I could not focus on what I was saying.

She was very quiet, slim topsides, and appropriately plump where she sat, all of which strangely said "middle aged." I found out, later, she actually was. THAT surprised me.

But she looked and acted 15 or so. And I couldn't take my eyes off her. I think she suspected it. Because of my sexual duality, I was confused. (I am sexually attracted to prepubes but visually and romantically attracted to postpubes.)

Hajduk's sentences slapped me in the face with how well it matched how I felt about someone 35 years above my AoA. I didn't think I could get more messed up than I already am. But, well, go figure.