Was the worst possible decision I could have made.

Maybe the morally and ethically right decision, but practically the worst.

I should have known better than to put my faith in people.

I was the last person she could trust and now. . . .

I can't imagine what she's going to do or say when she finds out I will "never be seeing her again". She's strong, but she has in the past shown herself to be unstable. My greatest fear. . . .

What am I to do?

I can't live with this.