Whilst it may seem like I'm not here a lot, doesn't mean I don't care.
Doesn't mean that I'm not there for you, either.
I know that you posted your reply a day or two ago, but I've just been computing it, as it were. What you've had happen to you (and, it has happened to you - you didn't cause it) is harsh.
I have read your posts on this subject, and from what I can tell, you have nothing wrong. If anything, you have been wronged.
Look, at this moment in space and time, we will never be understood - there is way too much against us. But it may not be like that forever...
But back to you. Yes, I understand your anger - you must be feeling that, it would be unnatural if you weren't. The assholes who decide these things are just that - assholes. They don't care about the truth, only about imposing their own narrative on things, and they do that to make themselves feel better. They are, in every sense of the word, assholes.
I understand and feel your incomprehension - how can the truth suddenly become an untruth? And untruths, the truth?
But, the powers that be (in this case, parents and 'concerned' relatives) have, unfortunately, the power. And, history is written by them, not the truth.
All I will say, is you need to look after yourself now. Fuck the others. It's what's best for you now, that's all.
And sorry, bud, but you will need to move on from this. I'm not saying you have to be brutal to the memory of your loved one, I know you can't do that, but you do have to pick yourself up and move on. Do you really think that she would want you to be so sad forevermore? Of course she wouldn't.
Spend some time grieving - you need that. But understand that all things must pass. Pick yourself up from the ground, both for you, and for her.
I will be checking into this board every couple of days for a fair while, just to see you and be here for you.
Much love, buddy.