Rainbow, I know that what you say isn't wrong, and I know that your love for this girl is true.
I also know that you would never do anything to harm her, and that you only want to protect her and do what is right by her.
Unfortunately, others out there don't look on it in the same way, which is why we have to give the LGs in our lives (if we are lucky enough to have them, that is) what they need in other ways.
And, those others, don't know us - they are afraid of us. And fear results in some pretty obtuse, and sometimes dangerous, reactions.
And that is rather sad. And, I'm sorry that you're having to learn this the hard way. I had to as well, although it was some decades ago. I don't want to talk about myself too much here, because this is about you, but I know that it took me some time to get over my heartbreak - that's why I feel it for you, too.
But I'm concerned that you are trying to hard to try to reconcile the situation, when really you should be trying to move away from it.
Ouch - that is harsh. And, I know you're not ready for that yet. But ultimately, that's what you have to do.
But you have to play this out. I'm only saying what will come - there's time before that happens. It's just that you seem to carry on torturing yourself, and it's painful to watch. But what do I know - you have to do it, I guess - it's part of the process.
Sorry, son. That's all I can say, is sorry - I'm sorry this has happened, and I'm sorry you got bit. And, I'm sorry that I don't seem to able to help you, or take the pain away. If I could take the pain for you, I would - time and age makes you a bit inured to things, I guess. I'd happily take your suffering for you. And I'm sad that I can't.
But please, just trust me when I say 2 things to you - first, it will get better. Second, you will emerge from this way stronger than you think possible.
With you in thought, all the time.