Hi sans,

I appreciate your apprehension. Here are three recent papers that I think meet the "not throwing you under the bus" criterion, but the final say is your own sense of it. The first two link directly to pdf copies of the paper that I keep on my personal website, just fyi.

https://ianvmcphail.files.wordpress.com/2018/05/age-of-onset-in-pedohebephilic-interests-2018-03-12-aam-for-website.pdf

https://ianvmcphail.files.wordpress.com/2018/05/legal-ethical-issues-in-treating-pedohebephilic-clients-aam.pdf

https://www.researchgate.net/publication/299657027_Non-Offending_Pedophiles

And here are a few blog posts I have done in recent years.

https://nextgenforensic.wordpress.com/2016/06/12/disclosing-a-sexual-interest-in-children-to-others-the-experience-of-a-non-offending-pedophile/

I hope this helps.