But much more reserved. I know now that what I desire will never be. Result is more angst. It’s just one more discomfort in growing old.

However another result is a more outward expression of ‘nurturing’, disciplining parents call it ‘spoiling’. Happiness of a LG is precious to me. Seeing her smile and eyes twinkle is what I live for.

My attraction moves more solidly into fantasy as I grow older.

Sigh