I fell in love again....

It's kind of amusing the first time I came here was because I had fallen in love with a little girl. It took a long time to get over her. And almost made me kill myself.

I'm not really suicidal this time, but holy crap it hurts so bad. And it's an adult.

I never expected to fall for her. She's an adult. I didn't think it was possible. So I let my guard down. She chased after me. I ignored her. She worked harder to get into my life. She got me to care about her a lot. She messaged me so many times there would be no span in a day longer than 4 hours without her having sent me a message some days. (when did she sleep?)

Then she stayed over. Fell asleep in my arms. Later everything seemed fine.

Then she stopped messaging me and barely would say hi. Only thing she tells my friend is that she knows I am head over heels for her. I never texted her asking what was going on. I figure that is pretty much the issue. My feelings far exceeded hers causing her to back off and lose interest.

But, here I am devastated. How the heck did I fall in love with an adult when I couldn't even fall for my fiance who I dated for two years and was amazing. Cupid sucks. There are two targets not one.