published, somehow, and go away.

There is nothing left in life.

I just want to die and sleep for ever, even if there is that eagle-owl in my childhood cowhouse.

https://www.gettyimages.com/detail/news-photo/arthur-schopenhauer-german-philosopher-1788-1860-wagner-was-news-photo/171178974

Another pic: Rosalia: Morten Krogvold