I didn't know her, but allow me to pretend I did.

Because it's a rare moment I feel I might have. I mostly despise all famous or famously connected people.

The loss of this particular girl just hit me hard, even as I read all the generic left #metoo nonsense she supported at 22. Probably not a surprise if she was pressured into events of her past, or never reconciled things she felt ok about back then. It's the easy path to follow for such girls, and not simply by chance, nor is the path layed out for them originally, organic in its nature. That's the part to remember in this overall pointless post.

I suspect education by the Jesuits doesn't traditionally lead to throwing off feelings of guilt and self-hatred from youth either, but that's probably neither here nor there.

She was struggling for years, though. I hear she was also the shy girl, in an extremely high profile family. It also looks like she planned her departure eloquently, sunrise swim and all that. Also.... she had some very early sexual experiences with a family member, hinted at by her own words. She clearly struggled with this. I've said at this place more than once, that nearly every older gal I became romantic with admitted to me later that she had earlier experiences with an older male prior to our own relationship, so this tends to hit a chord with me. The very few who didn't tell me that they had sexual relations as a kid, seemed to be struggling mentally even more than the ones who admitted it.

The more that traditional religious values existed in their upbringing, the more guilt-ridden they seemed to feel. Something is very wrong about that, by their own religious tenets. To conclude that you were a bad kid clearly means the texts you were hearing were not taking your own youthful trust into consideration.

I dunno, I'm more than double her age and even at my current age I cannot imagine the pressure of success in such a family. Incredibly young granddaughter of RFK? You are your parents' only kid? JEEEEEZ......

The upturned nose of my not-so-close wealthy elderly Catholic aunt is enough to give me a hint. No amount of close cousins or accepting friends ever relieves the little tinge of failure as your place in the the widowed matriarchal dustbin of lower casts.

Probably way off-base about her, but I sense she would have told me there was quite a bit of truth to a few of my suspicions. I feel her saying so to me even now, just not in a male nutcase sorta way.

May she rest well, that's all I ask. She likely deserved such a free pass.