unhealthy personal habits

What are those? Are you referring to masturbation? Masturbation is a completely normal way to relieve sexual tension. As Wink suggests, think whatever you want when you masturbate. There's no "wrong" way. There are ways that certain excessive masturbation habits to certain extreme fantasies can end up negatively impacting your ability to relate to others in-the-moment, but... as a general rule, you don't have anything to be concerned about re: masturbation. If your fantasies bother you, then ask yourself why they bother you, and what else might be going on internally and externally to impact the nature of those fantasies that are bothersome. But 9 times out of 10, you don't have anything to be torturing yourself over.

You're a pedophile; masturbation is pretty much indispensable. Try not to put more limits on yourself than society already does; you'll only increase your frustration, along with the negative effects that has on your mentality and behaviour - which are much more tangible.

If you feel like your masturbation negatively impacts your ability to relate to others in-the-moment, then maybe you're on the correct path by implementing some control measures.

Could it be, though, that something is making you feel guilty about your behaviour, and that your guilt is the true reason for your lack of comfort with your own apparent needs?

After all, there is no shortage of places for us to look or listen if we want to cultivate a false sense of guilt around our sexual identity, which strikes me as having a far greater potential to be damaging to you or others than your masturbation habits.

Maybe it's true that you objectify girls too much (you're a little icky in how you describe your interactions with some of the girls you meet), and maybe you do lack self-control. So if that's the case, more power to you. Stay healthy. Just know that masturbating to LG-centred fantasies is not innately wrong or shameful, and you might to better to work on the psychology around it rather than the masturbation itself.

~ Rainbow