GirlChat #730151
I must admit that my objectification of LGs has gotten way out of control! Although I experience my fair share of sweet girl moments, my modus operandi is a never-ending search for fap fodder. This has largely driven my behavior since I was a small child being told by my mother that touching myself was bad. Naturally, that only reinforced my desire to keep doing it.
It's very likely, given my advanced age, that I may never overcome this so-called icky affliction. I realize that I may never enjoy the genuinely loving interactions with LGs that you have shared (which btw I deeply envy). The ensuing shame has made me a virtual hermit. Yes, I understand that masturbation is natural, normal, and inevitable, especially for a MAP such as me. Unfortunately, M has become my primary raison d'etre. Consequently, any pursuit of intimate relationships or meaningful sources of livelihood has taken a distant back seat. Sadly, M has cost me dearly - two torpedoed high-tech careers, the loss of half a dozen potential life mates and dozens of treasured friendships, mortifying hyperhidrosis, impaired physical health, crippling depression, and a lifetime of self-imposed solitude and secrecy, among countless other unfortunate outcomes. Yet, I still find it impossible to give up. You catch my drift. Why I desire to keep breathing is a profound mystery to me. |