This has been an amazing and enlightening discussion, and I deeply appreciate all of the perspectives which have been shared so far.

I want to clarify that I sincerely hope that I would never intentionally orchestrate a sexual relationship with my adopted or procreated child. However, if I somehow did so, that I would terminate such relationship immediately. I feel that that would be a serious violation of the sacred relationship between a parent and child.

Along that line, I entertained a particular fantasy as an afterthought to my speculative post.

Somehow I had persuaded an unrelated 5 or 6yo LG in dire need of TLC and affection to return home with me. I'd been aware that she was living in an emotionally toxic home environment, and that her parents regularly abused her. I promised her to always take care of her to the best of my means and ability.

We immediately moved to a remote location but remained in the same state (in order to avoid potential interstate transport charges).

However, I made it clear that she was not a prisoner, never would be, and that she could leave at any time if she ever felt in danger. I even gave he her own phone to use anytime she felt the need.

Realizing that I would effectively be assuming the role of parent, I made both her and myself a solemn promise that I would never molest her, even with her express consent, because doing so would likely corrupt my intention to always act in her best interest.

However, I also revealed to her that I was a MAP, and that even though I would never touch her in a sexual way, I would still on occasion need to entertain private fantasies in an attempt satisfy my needs for "physical intimacy" (the actual words that I would use with her). However, I promised that the satisfaction of such needs would never involve her (except in my mind and never to be disclosed to her).

I reminded her that should she ever feel in danger or no longer wished to live with me that she could always leave or use her phone, and that I would not stop her. However, I also revealed that the very nature of what I was doing could get me sent away to prison for a very long time, but that it would be her choice whether to ever disclose our situation to anyone else.

Even as person in my senior years, I went on to raise this child as my own, creating a new birth certificate for her, enrolling her in school, and taking her on day outings and longer excursions. I also took her to the doctor whenever needed. I was fully aware that I was undertaking all of this at terrible risk to myself (eg. extensive incarceration and untold abuse at the hands of other inmates), but the benefits of having this lovely creature in my life more that outweighed any fear of arrest.

I realized that this situation could never last, and I was ready at any time to be arrested for child abduction. However, to my surprise, the LG chose to remain with me throughout her preteen years.

Admittedly her teen years were extremely trying (for both of us) but she still chose to remain with me even up until the day that she went off to college.

We had grown extremely close as "father" and "daughter", and would remain so into the conceivable future.

strangely, it had been a stroke of unbelievable luck that no one had ever reported her as an abducted child and that she herself never revealed to anyone that she had once been abducted.

Admittedly, I am not so naive as to believe that any of this could ever take place in real life. But it was a satisfying fantasy nonetheless.

Thank you Rainbowloom for your sage counsel and wisdom.