Right now I'd like to drink coffee, real coffee, a lot of real caffein coffee with a lot of sugar. But I cannot. Sugar is not good for my health, and if I drink real coffee now, I will not sleep.

I'd like to eat fried meat and eggs with a lot of butter and grease. But I cannot.

Sometimes I would like to smoke. Two boxes a day, thanks.

Sometimes I would like to drink. Hard liquor. Koskenkorva, vodka!

And sex, it does not even interest me much any longer, but maybe life would be less empty if I fucked ten times a day.

Books are boring. I have been trying to read Montaigne, but reading does not really interest me any more. Movies? They don't interest me either.

So what is left?