The plan in the back of my head, that I have reserved for emergencies (like when im in so much pain, and cant bar to go on) went something like this:

Close the garage door, engine running, bag over head, and sleeping tab overdose. But then guess what

A few weeks ago my cousin tries taking her life in this exact way. She ended up going into a coma and waking in hospital while later. Thanks to her though for having me learn from her mistake.

Bullet to the head seems to be the most effective way, loud as it might be. I worry that it might not be that easy to procure a firearm here where im from (as it might be in the states... idk).

It kills me to complaining like this. Most know me to see the glass half full.


When I see someone beautiful,
I tend to stare.
Sorry.