I knew beforehand that affirming as I did that you don't know us may read like a request to stay out. I apologize in advance because that's certainly not what I want. Even an opinion without full knowledge may be valuable.

But otherwise I stand by the main point. You don't know her life. You don't know my life. You don't know the story of our relationship and what it has meant for me, for her and for the people around us. And for good security reasons; hers, mine, yours (y'all's who read), and the board's, it has to remain this way. Even if I sound cryptic, or indeed, as telling other people to F. off...

I probably will never really know why, but I know that she doesn't see me as a boyfriend, husband, life companion, and father of her children.

But that's how I see her: as my girlfriend, as my wife, as my life companion, and as the mother I want for my children.

Never say never, but will I ever see anyone like I see her? Unlikely. And will she ever see me like I see her? Unlikely.

Still I have few regrets. Even at my worst, I know why I've chosen what I've chosen. I can see why it may have been wrong in hindsight. But at the time I knew what I had chosen.

It's only in God's hands to save me or not.



Cuteness is to die for
Cuteness cannot fail
Cuteness knows no limit
Cuteness will prevail