I know a lot of what you're feeling. I've been extremely absent for... Hell, idk how long now. Probably a year or more basically. I popped in for a bit when some heavy shit went down in my life and haven't shown up since. But I still think of you and all my friends here. Idk how well I'd get on with the new faces here, but I hope this storm passes soon for you. I always saw you as something of an inspiration. You're a wonderful person and a great friend. Idk what I can tell you right now, but I genuinely hope things start looking up for you again. Hang in there. You still have friends here who love you dearly.