...has begun to distress me sometimes. It feels unnatural to be always alone. I have never been very sociable, but this is a little too much. I don't want to meet anybody in particular, but it would be nice to walk outside and go to places without a shade of worry.

Better to be careful, though, with my age and lung disease, and wait for the vaccination.

(Horrible, first I typed "I don't want to meet anyboy in particular"...!)