(My Scientist)

So like, she's batshit crazy since prior to me, but simultaneously way more intelligent than me.. which takes a few long years to Take a step back! (Thank you, Live GD Bob Weir utterance. Wait, what?) er, and realize the reason I was crying to the Coldplay "muzak" in the supermarket all those years ago was because she was TRYING to send me a message, and with foreshadowing, no less. What a lucky moron I was back in those days, to actually be trying to sound intelligent here in order to buck a trend that in my heart, I knew was definitely not being at all sincere for true romantics like me.. and to be "found" and adopted by an intelligent like-thinking young lady as a consequence of my truly earnest heartfelt blatherings.

I was a different "me" back then. Maybe more carefully refined and careful about what I let slip out with regard to real beliefs, but also more lacking in my "ever-expressed-at-GC 'Rolodex' of experiences and knowledge." (I am a FIRM believer that IQ is fixed, but it takes experiences, with allowances for success and failure, to make that IQ discover nuggets of Truth, and then express its own ultimate potential fruition.

Nobody get mad, please. I hold no real power that even makes it worth your effort for anger toward me. It honestly feels so freakin' weird when I encounter it. I am just another idiot like you, expressing himself.

However, as I was saying..

There is a former girl out there, somewhere in the world, who may have "had a past" before me, or who might just be the way she is without outside influence.

Whatever the case may be, I honestly adored her, and in retrospect, am thankful for the things she taught me, AND for the things that she made sure would forever haunt me, while she was still in her brilliant youthfulness:

The lights go out and I can’t be saved
Tides that I tried to swim against
Have brought me down upon my knees
Oh I beg, I beg and plead, singing
Come out of the things unsaid
Shoot an apple off my head and a
Trouble that can’t be named
A tiger’s waiting to be tamed, singing
You are, you are
Confusion that never stops
The closing walls and the ticking clocks gonna
Come back and take you home
I could not stop, that you now know, singing
Come out upon my seas
Cursed missed opportunities
Am I part of the cure
Or am I part of the disease, singing
You are, you are
You are, you are
You are, you are
And nothing else compares
And nothing else compares
And nothing else compares
You are, you are
Home, home, where I wanted to go
Home, home, where I wanted to go
Home, home, where I wanted to go (You are)
Home, home, where I wanted to go (You are)

Sorry, goddess. My knowledge was of the truth, but it was lacking about you. Forgive me.