I think I am going to try writing an autobiography on my entire life, the major points that drove me to make me who I am. I think having that written down could help me a lot in understanding myself.
It will be detailed enough that it will be interesting, but also discreet enough that I will be able to post it here without revealing too much about myself. Some names of 'characters' might have to be changed, but oh well.
My life has been a huge struggle. But I've learned so much. I haven't needed to work in like 15 years. I've spent so much of that time meditating on life and figuring things out. And I have so many different experiences having been part of different philosophies at different times. Yes, I've been greatly confused. But that's helped me understand things even more. I can see and understand different viewpoints through different eyes.
I may even show the autobiography to my mother eventually. She always wants to know what she, and others, did so wrong against me that I hold certain issues from the past against them. I have been far from perfect, but I've also been greatly wronged.
Wish me luck in writing this. Hopefully I can do this. I've always wanted to write a novel, but something like an autobiography is much easier for me.
A running theme directed at humanity in the autobiography will be:
We dig our own graves.
We reap what we sow.
We make our own beds and have to lie in them.
Many of the choices I've made regarding myself have not been my own, but the choices others have made for me. I've been brainwashed at different points in my life. That eventually came back to haunt others, especially my family.