I know people make mistakes, and I don't think your mistakes are unforgiveable, but there are conditions on forgiveness that I don't think you've met yet, although you've made progress. I don't want to tear open old wounds either, or start an argument, so I'll limit this to saying I don't think you understand, yet if ever, exactly why some of us were angry about the money problem, and until you do, it's hard to forgive.

I respect you, although it might not always show because I am sometimes rather hot-headed. I also care about you, whether you believe it or not, which is why I'm writing this reply. I wouldn't mind talking to you in chat, or even over the phone if it was possible to do so safely (which it isn't). That doesn't mean that I like you again, or trust you again, yet. I strongly agree with some things you believe, but I also strongly disagree with some other things you believe that I think are critical, and those who hold contrary views on those issues should not expect my friendship or trust. You had my complete friendship and trust back when you were Markaba, and I would still welcome the day of his return.

Besides that, if losing GC would affect you like it would affect me, that counts as harm, and as I still care about you, I don't want that harm to come to you. Don't go. There's still hope if you stay, there's no hope if you leave.