GOM paradise (maybe GM paradise eventually?)

Hello everyone, I'm back now. My computer was on the blink for awhile there, but I'm back in buisness :)

Well, after I got home from work today, my family and I decided to go swimming in the community pool; I live in a covenant controlled community (not unlike Camelot Gardens -smirk- how ironic is that?) Very nice pool, first time I've ever been to it. There's a lake right next to the pool, and the pools' water is crystal blue, reminds me of Hawaii. Anyway, as we get there, that wonderful sound of giggling and splashing fills the air. As I walk in, I realize that probably half of everyone there are little girls. Absolutely wonderful. Seeing as how my family is around, I successfully feign apathy. See, my parents are very liberal, liberal in all ways save one. They would love to see everyone that's attracted to children be castrated. Yikes. Maybe that's another reason I'm so paranoid all the time...

As I lie there on that pool chair in the perfect 90 degree weather, with the lake next to me, lush green trees and foliage everywhere, along with sound of angels filling the air, and sweet, sweet rapture in front of me, it felt like nothing less then Elysium. And that feeling, the atmosphere, the energy, it's like nothing I could ever describe. But.... something was missing...

I'd like to ask a quick question of everyone, how likely do you think it would be to make a long term little friend there? Is it reasonable? I couldn't strike up a conversation with anyone because of the fact that my family was there, but I'll be back there by myself all the time, no doubt about it. All the adults in my community seem to have a stick up their ass, like I said, it's alot like Camelot Gardens. Would they just think I was some kind of pervert if I started talking to one of their children? Maybe it's here that I'll find love eventually... or maybe it'll be the death of me. Any thoughts?

P.S. Sorry if I sound like a broken record, I only rediscovered myself emotionally (and sexually) about 2-3 weeks ago and still need a fair amount of support. Thank you guys!!

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