Re: HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow what a plethora of answers here and it touches on so many subjects. I really don't think I can offer any advice but what I can do is say a lil of my own life and respond to a few of the posts down below.

I have been married for 25 years and have had a "mistress" for 10 !!! Now I can't even imagine who would kick my ass worse - the folks reading this or my lover for calling her a mistress ? I love my wife and I love "that other woman" as well. The conversations can become skitso in fact when that "other woman" - from now on refered to as A - gets on my ass to make sure I am a good husband to my wife.

Now how can I be a good husband and still have sex with A? Simply because I can love two women at once. Some folks cannot. My wife for instance could never understand and yet A is always on the lookout for my wife. For some people sex is not the defining factor and the all important thing in life. In fact, for some, sex is a joyous celebration of life and good clean fun between people. I am not offering an excuse or somehow rationalising my behavior - I am telling you how I live - and for that I offer no apologies.

It has been actually wonderful for me to have these two women in my life. I have a resource of different opinions on things and yet, as a woman, A can show me how a woman thinks. My wife and I have shared interests and A and I have others. I guess I should have said this before but both women are approx my own age. So how does this fit in with being a GL ? In some ways it sure doesn't but it is one of the subjects raised here - two lovers.

One of the subjects raised was whether or not we should be involved with a woman our age if we are girl lovers and I saw nothing addressed as to how we may have been physically attracted to a woman 25 years ago and for many years thereafter. But sometimes as we age, things become different. I am not talking per se about the womans age but my own. When I was younger it was actually easier for me being MAA. As I grow older I find it is much harder for me. I want what I want. And at this age I am used to getting what I want. I have spoken semi honestly with A about this attraction and she knows what I am talking about since women are very aware of the attraction of youth. Actually she helps keep me stabilised in that she knows (And reminds me) that sexually there is not one lil girl out there who can compare. And she is correct.

I remember once speaking to A about my attraction to a certain young girl - her reply ? Don't do it. Why ? Because at my age I have the money and experience to wow her and it would ruin her in the end because I was not willing to make the lifelong commitment to her I had with my two women. It was merely physical and so it would have destroyed this young girl when she left and had to face others her own age. How nice I would have been to her and yet at the same time how much I would have warped her sense of reality. A was right - I would have wined her and dined her and ..... No sweaty fumblings in the back seat of a car but rather romance times 100. As sick as it may sound some things are inevitable.

So, I have two women and I cannot help you. But I can say this - you know what is right and what is just in your own life. Just be very careful cause cheating sex is always better and the surge of the moment is so powerful. And in the end when it comes to young girls - shit I may be here next week saying I am in love. I have no judgement when it comes to lil girls. (Other than behaving myself) I can fall in love so easily with a young girl. But that should tell you something and that should be the warning. Just remember that those moments you described will become passe' in the future. You felt the same way about your wife when you first met.

As for her being young ? THAT I can understand. Be very careful my friend - we don't always think clearly when it comes to young girls.

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