I actually envy you now.

I know alot of people think it would be cool to be in my situation, but the truth is that it's not. I do have NO doubt that some people here would be having full blown sex with her by now if it was them. I know she has some idea of what she wants, but I know she doesn't really have an "adjenda". I know she rubs herself and we've actually talked about it before...she thought for a while that's what sex was. I remember her asking me if I ever rub myself, she was seven at the time...and that's when I knew she was masturbating. She's just a sexual kid I guess. I'll never forget her rubbing herself on my leg when she was 5. I swear I almost died. I was so clueless back then, I had spent so many years around kids and yet I had never allowed myself to see how sexual some of them could be. She really totaly blew my mind. I had to rethink EVERYTHING after that one summer with her and my other cousin T.

Now that she is 9 she is just so much more aware. She also knows that I am resistant to her "advances", so she keeps trying to find clever ways to get me to touch her. I can tell she gets really frustrated when they don't work on me, and she usually just deals with it. It used to be easy to distract her from that stuff when she was younger, but that doesn't really work anymore. I usually just say stuff like "I can't touch you there, you know we'd both get into trouble". I don't want to give her some big speech about Girl Love and AoC and stuff...I know she'd kinda understand, but it's too much (in my opinion) to tell her.

I really do hope you never have to go thru it...but from what I've read so far, it sounds like it's already begun. She KNOWS you are into her, and like being close to her...kids are SOOOOO f*cking persceptive, they can read body language and facial expressions WAY better than most adults and man, you just CANNOT fool them. When she gets a little older, she may very well want to experiment with you, after all, she loves you and trusts you and knows YOU are into her and that's just the person she'd go after...

Ah, if people only knew how kids really are...

At any rate, I look forward to reading more about you and her in the future.

Take care,

Infinity