Small but incredible GM

Well I just finished a 2 week B-fest. That is, I have been able to see my lovely little B on 4 occassions in 2 weeks.

For me this has been incredible as I can go a couple of months without seeing her.

Things seem to be going good. Well apart from the fact that my head is screwy from being so head over heals for a 5 year old.

It is hard to juggle spending time with her parents and with her. To swing one way would be detrimental to the other. If I ignore her well it goes without saying, and if I totally ignore her parents then could potentially cut me off from her. It is this sort of pressure that is really stuffing me around at the moment.

I am scared that I am starting to get tired of the whole deal. My emotions are boucning around like a cork in the ocean.

I really need to step back I think. Fuck I don't know. If you love someone, set them free? Is that for real. I am feeling like that at the moment.

Geez, I've turned my post around. See I just started the message and hit the keys to see what came out and here it is.

I really should pop the moment in, but it is irrelevant in the scheme of how I am feeling. Here it is...

B can spell out and write my name out without any assistance.

There you go. That's it. Small but so absolutely beautiful.

Think I'm going to go have a lie down or a cry or punch something. I don't know. Getting tired of it all.