awhhhhhhhhh

*wipes away tears*

That is so sad :( I am really sorry things are so hard for you. I know the feelings of guilt and frustration that I probably won't ever realize a relationship with a girl.. but I am not exclusive and have a loving and close relationship with a man, who also knows about my pedo feelings and accepts me.

I don't think you should give up on yourself. Especially on being a father, or having a companion. Its possible to be married to someone without having sexualness, such as a female exclusive ped or someone who is nonsexual.. or any other reason they just need a loving companion.. sort of like sisterly love, i hug and cuddle my sister but of course its totally non sexual.

It makes me really sad that you don't get hugs and stuff all the time.. i agree its so important to be touched by other people and have closeness.

*hugs*

I would give you a ton of hugs if I could!!! Please don't give up on it.. if you have been outed its always possible to move somewhere else so you could be a dad. There are so many possible situations that could provide a really nice comfortable relationship and you wouldn't feel like you had to fake being attracted to a woman. I hope you find one!!!

If you ever wanna talk I am here for you
:)