Re: I'm sad (the pedo's constant dilemma)

Hello Markaba, cheer up old friend, the thoughts and hugs of most members in here are with you, cheer up no need to be blue, comfort from your friends here will see you through. Poetry...maybe not but i tries. :)

Many can relate to your predicament and your heartache, but none can know exactly the pain you're feeling. All we can do is lend our support, comfort, words of wisdom and positivity to you.

I like many others know your sadness, the darkness that covers all that was once important, once relevant. Be strong MARKABA and PLEASE do not succumb to the dark mists that so easily cover all positive things in reality and fantasy. As sure as day follows night your moment of sadness will lift letting the light illuminate your world, showing all that is very worthwhile and relevant.

My mother passed away when i was four years of age, for 90% of the next 24 years i spent in various househlds without a mother figure in my life, in a house of males expressions of family love were non-existant, only the punishment side of things. The longing i've for had female contact was/is immeasurable. My childhood affected my school years, wanting a girl but didnt know why and to boot felt as if i may be using her if i even talked to her (fathers attitudes towards women instilled in me, sigh)

To this day one can only thank genetics for the way i turned out, one cannot be so thankful about my fathers traits and attitudes.

No matter where i work or who i'm with most ask me how i can be so positive all the time 'living with a negative bleep bleep bleeeeeeep-bleep of a father has someting to with it, i'll vow to never be like that' is often my response. Trust me i aint all happy smiley make you cringe kinda person but i often look at the positives available to me no matter how glib the setting might be.

Perhaps reading these messages will rekindle the fires of hope that once burned so brightly within you.

Is there any chance you can adopt a child? but i thinks your circumstance will not permit this.

Do you feel guilty about your pedoness because of what the anti's and ill informed majority think ? those who often judge are often the least knowledgeable about the subject matter (judiciary aside...maybe)