Is there any way I can keep her in my life, even though she's dead???

Well, some would say that the easiest thing to do would be to realize that, well... you never met her, and all in all, it's pretty much a stalker's crush.

OTOH, if the major TV networks can't do this, I suppose there'd be people like you, too.

I have no idea if there are fansites, or any such thing. It's... never been that much of an interest to me, all in all. I tend to focus more on people I, well, know. Specifically, people who've latched on to me and won't let go, anyway.

...but, I guess people you've actually met aren't for everyone. I'm sure there's something on the 'net. Good luck with whatever you do with your life...