My first attempt at recounting a GM

I have avoided posting GMs so far because: A) There are not that many Ephebophiles on this board so I am not sure how interesting people may find them and B) I do not have a very folksy posting style...but anyway here are a few GMs that I have had over the last year or so.

FIRST GM

I was standing in line at a pasta/pizza stand in a shopping mall food court during lunch hours. It was obviously lunch time for the nearby (mixed gender) catholic high school as the food court was filled with cute girls. I don't know what it is about that particular school but the girls there tend to not only be very good looking but very good natured, polite and feminine as well.

In front of me in the line was a cute girl about 16 years old, she had dirty blonde hair tied back, an adorable face, ample chested and had very nice soft skin. It was hot outside so she had (obviously) left her uniformed shirt at school and was wearing a tank top and a kilt. Though I (obviously) did not know her she gave off vibes that suggested that she was a very kind, caring and good natured girl.

Eventually it came to be her turn to order, despite social condemnation of male attraction of adolescents the three adult males who were running the joint seemed to race to see who got to be the one who served her. She ordered her pizza slice but then when she reached for her wallet she realized that she was a bit short and this place did not have debit. She apologized profusely to the cashier and called out to her friends for help. She was only about 50 cents short so I reached for a lonnie (a canadian $1 coin) in my pocket to cover the difference for her, after all she was a very nice attractive girl and it would have given me great pleasure to do something nice for her. As I took the lonnie out though I froze with anxiety, what if this girl were to detect the fact that I find her attractive and become alarmed? She might have bought into the propaganda that adult men who are attracted to teen girls are disgusting creeps who should be burnt at stake and if she were to react negatively I would feel crushed. I decided to brave it out though but before I could say anything one of her friends came on the scnene with the required change (SHIT! there went my chance to show some sort of appreciation to a very attractive girl).

After I had ordered my food I went to sit down in the food court and a few minutes later this girl and a couple of her friends moved over and sat very close to me. She seemed so nice....so caring...I was feeling that sensation of being trapped behind an invisible barrier that I want to smash (I have talked about this before). All throughout the food court were not only high school students on lunch but many adults on lunch from the local office building complexes. I kept on wondering...was I the only one who found it so...inhuman...to be in an area surrounded by so many appealing teen girls (and one EXTREMELY APPEALING GIRL) and to not be allowed to try an take one out? It would stress me out enormously to have lunch at this place everyday and be in that situation. I wondered how many of the men in that food court would look down on me and would love to "fucking kill" an adult male who would want to be with a "minor" (while probably wanting to high five an adolescent male/adult female couple).

I feel embarassed to admit this (because I am always telling everyone to not let your happiness become dependant on relationships with women) but when that girl got up and left the food court with her frieds I felt TEMPORARILY depressed. In all honesty even without social condemnation of Ephebophilic relationships my social impairment would have made it difficult for me to talk to a girl in that context anyway. I looked at her and said to myself "I would love to talk to you and perhaps take you out on a date but I can't so I wish you the best and I hope the lucky bastard who does get to take you out treats you very well".

I will post my next GMs in separate posts so as not to make the posts too long.