one more thing.......

i know when you say to let people get to know you your not saying a physical description or their address etc. and i don't think simply by talking about your self you can be outed, but what if you slip up and say something that links you to another board, or youtube, and then you are outed, once your face is out there and all your posts are collected there is no way you could say to your friends, family, or co-workers no that's not me.

also, it seems people are forgetting all the things i have came out and told people here. the biggest and most recent thing of course being the family issues i had once i came out to them. i gave detailed, truthful, intricate details of my experiences with the hopes of helping people understand that your family can have you committed for psychiatric evaluation under the guise that pedophilia is considered a mental illness at which point they keep you for atleast 3 days and must prove you are not dangerous to society. i even posted the actual law that i was sectioned under.

i also spoke many times on how i work at a place that in addition to adult clothing sells lg's clothes and that i have had many GM's while working in the fitting room.

i've spoken of other things like being a writer, my love for music, & my christian faith etc. but the truth is i don't want to be accepted here so bad that i am willing to open up with more and more details like that. i am not comfortable doing that. i feel it is too dangerous and not worth the risk. the possible consequences are too great. my concious has a way of eating at me, not that i'm scared of being arrested because i don't break the law, just being outed etc. theres just way too much to lose for me. with what ive just said there and in previous posts if i was ever outed there would be absolutley no way for me to deny that was me to my friends, family & possibly even some colleaugues. period. for this reason i am leaving this place, at least for now. not sure if i'll be back, i just know being accepted here isn't even close to worth being outed. and ignoring people is hard for me.

as for my view points, i have never been able to form a concrete political position. one day i feel like a democrat the next a republican. when it comes to things like that i am easily pursuaded. on one hand i hear someones opinion and think...that sounds right. then i hear the opposite side and think that sounds right too. honestly like abortion i really don't know. the christian in me says no...but the progressive in me says yes. i'm kind of an appeaser so i'm just like, eh, whatever you think. although i have a feeling that will change once i have children whom i love so dearly that i don't want corrupted by society. like being told being gay is normal. i don't want my kid being taught that in school, i feel it should be left up to the parent. again, these are the issues that are just so hard for me to decide on..and then being a gler complicates things even more since i know i am trust worthy, well intentioned, and would never hurt a lg, but in a utopian society with no aoc laws would love nothing more than to have an intimate relationship with one and think there would be nothing wrong with it.

my thoughts on maa's is about the same. i hear one person give a very good opinion on why aside from the law sexual contact with children is okay, and think i agree with that. on the other hand, being molested as a child and notgetting help i know i suffered from it. although, i was abused mentally and physically by my parents as well so i feel i had many things that affected my development

anyways, it's just too much for me to put in as much time on this as i have. with all the posts and responses i've read and written on this thread i could have done many more productive things with my life that have absolutely no chance of outing me. if i ever come back maybe i'll decide to only post and never respond. i just can't keep debating, especially with someone like you, who like myself can get long winded and have as many rebuttles as there are stars in the sky.

either way, i thank you for your time & patience dissident. i know you care, GC and the maa community is a better place because you are in it.

have a safe and happy new year. good luck and god bless.