I've always been paranoid. It may even be clinical degree paranoia. Drug intake enhanced it. But it was there since forever.
I've learned through the harshness of life to be confrontational; to shoot first and maybe say sorry later.
I've always been impulsive. It's the other side of my otherwise equanimity.
But I love girls, and I'd give my life for many a girl.
One of these days I may try to give some words about every girl, or at least most girls, that mattered to me. Not even including crushes from afar where I don't know the girl well and have only ever admired her beauty and poise.
But rest assured, to make a long story short, seeing Gunner is what is keeping me alive in a true abyss of despair.
The Oracle said Socrates was the wisest of all men. Socrates realized it wasn't because he knew more -- it was because he knew he didn't know. I'm not a good person. I'm an evil person. But I know I'm evil, and that gives me an edge over those who wander around the green earth not seeing they are evil.