Yes, context may be scarce.

Thatcher, Raccoon and Gunner are sisters. I've known them for about 6 years. Back then, the former two were tweens and the latter a preteen; now they are teens and tween. I've become almost a family member. I crushed very hard on Raccoon for a long while, but for a little more than a year I have been in love with Gunner. Due to our particular circumstances, I now think that Gunner and I may have a lifelong future as a marriage -- certainly it's my dream now.

You are quite blessed to have such a place of love and influence in the lives of these LG's -- and, from how you describe your own approach and thoughts, I believe they are fortunate to have you in their lives as well, even if they seem unaware or dismissive of it at times (even to the point of hurting you).

I know.
But I needed to vent, get it off my chest.

I feel like I lost Raccoon's confidence, and that hurts. It also feels ironic because she still wants to rely on me in other ways.


I know she'll understand.

Thatcher did. It took her years to see how much I meant it when I said I loved her, but eventually she did. So, Raccoon will.

I just didn't want it to end in this fashion.


In the meantime, Gunner needs me. I'll be there for her.