"No, after She left my AoA, I would not have been able to progress, even if She had wanted to.
She was a "good girl" until She got married. She has three kids now.
I am married now. While I can perform as a proper husband, it's not something I find as a craving. Just a duty. Lately, I can't even do that."
But your present wife is not in your AoA either.
Lately you cannot even do that. But recently you could, as a duty not craving, but could.
Would you have found it easier to perform your duty with your present wife, out of your AoA, or with Her, likewise out of your AoA, had She asked you to?
Had She met you at, say, prison gate, and asked you to enter the now hairy and out of your maidenhead AoA in Her early 20s, to make Her children, would you have been unable to do your duty?