I'll help you a little with the archives, though I obviously can't give you access.

Your ⛓️‍💥[Removed] post as Markaba.

I found your last post as Markaba (for 16 months, anyway), but on reading the replies to it, decided not to link it because it would definitely reopen old wounds.

It's hard to find anything among 3473 posts, but here's ⛓️‍💥[Removed], and ⛓️‍💥[Removed]⛓️‍💥[Removed] will help you reopen your eyes.