You're not seriously claiming now that the miracle of life and "creation" is proof of God's existence, are you? Wow.
And evolutionary study has also brought forth good evidence as to why it is human beings so often see their surroundings as beautiful and wondrous. You should study some time.
If I wanted to know all there is to know about ABC's TV show "LOST", I would go watch it to know what it's about. I wouldn't sit around merely thinking and drawing my own conclusions of what it's about. Even though to an extent I like the way you put how you draw your own conclusions on life. It seems though that so far your own conclusions are pretty diluted. Some of the greatest thinkers and people with the highest IQs spend time laughing and laughing about the way people like you explain things, if I'm to assume I'm reading you right. And I'm not talking about Hadjuk here now, either.
It's all not much of a mystery.
Procrastination is not the answer.