Alright, I'll just be out with it. PJ and friends will probably use this against me, as proof that all pedos are crazy. I don't care anymore. I am weak right now, and afraid I'm losing my mind. I cannot say more than that. I am about to pick up a gun and blow this computer sky high. I just want to die but I don't have the courage to do it myself. I am half tempted to find the nearest anti and tell them I molested their kid, then hand them a gun, just so I can end this. I don't know what to call it. This insanity. This world doesn't seem real to me anymore. I feel like everyone in the world has gone off the deep end, and I'm the only sane one left, which means by definition I'm the crazy one. It's the same thing. I keep slapping my head to make reality come back, to put things back the way they were when I was a kid. I seriously need help, and I can't afford to see a doctor. I can't afford to do anything but go batshit crazy, and I might already be there. Please, someone email me or something. Please, I'm begging.